by Tara Johnson
God’s grace is sufficient. I’m learning this well.
I was recently diagnosed with gastroparesis. This means that my stomach doesn’t pump. Any food I consume will sit there for hours, even days. In addition to messing up blood sugar levels, it causes nausea, vomiting, weight loss, abdominal pain and a host of other symptoms.
Medication worked for a while but it cannot be used long term. Anything with much substance causes tremendous problems—not just for a few hours but often for days.
But there is one thing I CAN digest easily—liquids. Yeah, you can see where this is going. I can’t eat regular food, but water, juices, tea … no problem. I’m on a liquid only fast for, well, probably the rest of my life. I’ll admit it’s been hard.
But God is teaching me so much. On days when I’m crying out for food, He gives me strength I didn’t have before. Yesterday I saw a commercial for a big, juicy cheeseburger. My mouth watered, How could I keep going without food?
He gently reminded me, Tara, if only you would crave and thirst for Me like that.
But I’m so hungry, Lord!
My grace is sufficient. Use this hunger to remind yourself that there’s a world full of dying people that I love like crazy. They are hungry for me. Tell them.
God also provides a way to make it bearable. I was recently introduced to a representative with Advocare. They have a whole line of products—smoothies and juices to help people dealing with conditions like mine. They have equipped me with everything I need to get all my vitamins and nutrients. He isn’t giving me what I want, but He’s giving one better—what I need.
And instead of thinking of all the things I can’t have, I thank God for the things I CAN have. Thank You, Lord, for this protein shake. I was hungry, and You provided. Thank you, Lord, for my juicer, so I can still enjoy the fruit I love. It’s all about perspective.
Consider The Hiding Place by Corrie Ten Boom. She and her sister Betsy were prisoners in a German death camp during World War II. They entered their new barracks and were horrified to discover the bunkhouse was overrun with fleas. Fleas everywhere! Corrie began to cry, but Betsy responded, “We are going to stop right now and thank God for these fleas!”
Corrie, of course, thought she was crazy. But they both bowed their heads and thanked Him for … fleas.
Corrie wondered why the rules were so lax inside their bunkhouse. No guards came to check on them inside and because of that, they were able to conduct a Bible study every night. Many women were saved as a result. Later, Corrie was shocked to discover the reason no guards ever came into their bunkhouse—they were terrified of the fleas!
He works it all out according to His will, for His plan and for His glory. It’s all good.
How has God shown you His sufficient grace?